pleasure in pain
in the recess of suffering
dormant ... brooding
a dark sort of pleasure
i felt it, you know
invading my brain cells
i WANTED to hurt him --
that weak, vulnerable
and special one
special?
yes ...
meaning --
not like the others
and it felt good
to turn my love for him
into lust for his pain
and then pierce him
with my poisoned arrows
in his retreat
he retaliated
i wished,
in some twisted way,
to see him writhing
see his face contorted in grief
see the tears trickle
from his sad, empty eyes
to know
that i caused him suffering
a great pleasure --
pleasure of pain?