sadistic

image/artist: eyreequel by enayla

i wish i could see his pain
i think about him
simply for that--
simply because
i wonder what it looks like
his pain
his suffering
his longing
does he have such?

what does it sound like?
the sound of his pain?
his sobs?
silent weeping?
or ...?
gutteral cries?


i long to hear
to feel ... to see
to get a wisp
a slivery thread
of his torment

to see him shimmer
in his darkness
glow in his sorrow

why ---
does it make my heart leap
to think of the weak, passive one
in the chains of sorrow?